February 24

“Whenever we ask for this help, we invite God into our lives in a new way.”

Sex Addicts Anonymous, page 43

I’m not very good at receiving from others. At the same time, I tend to hoard things. In my mind’s eye, I see my hands piled with useless junk. I can’t receive or hold anything new until I put something down. Likewise, I can’t fully receive God’s love and healing until I give up what’s blocking me from accepting it.

The Steps help me identify the self-will that prevents my healing and growth. But I can’t change my own programming; all I can do is become willing to allow God to change it. Demanding that God do that for me doesn’t work either, but when I invite my Higher Power to remove my resentment, impatience, fear, and the other things that impede my recovery, and when I humbly ask to be filled with love and light instead, I can feel my nature changing.

As I do things that strengthen my relationship with God, that connection increases my sense of self-worth. When I surrender my character defects to my Higher Power, it leaves my heart free to receive what God wants to give me.

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God, please take from me whatever hinders my progress and give me what I need to grow.