“When we make a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of the God of our understanding, we begin to notice signs of growth and transition, evidence that the program is working.”
Sex Addicts Anonymous, page 31
When I first came into the program, to imagine a life of honesty and openness seemed all but impossible. The maintenance of my secret life required the exact opposite of honesty and openness. But by becoming willing to make small changes in my life, I found first relief and then serenity in small doses.
Keeping in mind the idea of treating my addiction as a disease helps with my willingness as well. Maintaining my spiritual condition continues in much the same ways that my diabetic friends maintain their health, with choices and small actions throughout the day and throughout life.
Working the spiritual program of SAA continues to provide hope and experience in being restored to sanity in my life. Though not every day is sunny, I can be grateful for many things in my new life in recovery.
My willingness can begin with small choices leading to small actions. Honesty with a sponsor and being open to my own new ideas about the God of my understanding are a great start.