October 29

“As addicts, we are accustomed to seeking instant gratification. But in recovery, most of us experience gradual improvement rather than sudden transformations.”

Sex Addicts Anonymous, page 44

Part of the humility in asking my Higher Power to remove my defects is willingness to practice daily patience and complete trust. Hanging a sign that says, “Believe with all your heart,” helped me remember and affirm this.

As an addict I am comfortable in my familiar ways of thinking: black and white, all or nothing, now or never. To be willing to experience little baby steps of growth requires willingness, trust, an open mind, and surrender. I need to practice these on a daily and hourly basis. I’m learning to adopt new ways of thinking—the ones that actually work.

In this process, I see the infinite mercy and love of my Higher Power. God’s gentleness teaches me I’m respected, worthy, and trusted today. I’m enjoying and trusting my Higher Power’s pace, timing, and rhythm.

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God’s gentleness teaches me I’m respected, worthy, and trusted today.